In August Michael and I will celebrate our 10th Wedding Anniversary. It's really amazing to me that time has flown by the way it has. Considering everything we've been through, we really haven't had time to watch the clock.
We married each other while residing in separate states. Soon after, we lost a court custody case, both of our jobs, our house and our plans for the future all within the first two months of marriage. I was struggling with being very, very angry at God. Naturally, when your pissed at God and don't have a ministry anymore and your husband has forfeited his 15 year career just to be with you, you get pregnant!
Difficult pregnancy, lots of baggage, confusion about the future, living on grilled cheese…we packed and moved to Florida. I joined a rather unhealthy church staff, and then lost my grandmother. In the midst of that grieiving, my soldier was deployed. I was church-less, somewhat friend-less, familyy-less and husband-less. I was a terrible soldiers wife on so many levels.
But my husband….well, he's a super hero. He's stayed faithful and committed to our family. He works hard and loves the Lord, even when he struggles with his faith. He's pushed through his own post-war struggles and in some ways is still trying to recuperate. In some ways we are all trying to find our footing again. Regardless of his own struggles, he supports me and my ministry.
Sometimes he believes in God's calling on my life more than I do. And most of the time, I need him too. I'm easy to walk away from challenges, and details and trudging through the mud, but he's a soldier. He pushes me to be better than I could ever imagine myself being.
He sacrifices so much for our family. Our home has become a Youth building, our couch is beyond disgusting. I won't even tell you about the caprpet. He works countless hours for this. In fact just last week he stayed awake for 48 hours straight just to work so that I can do ministry and be here for my kids.
Then there are the times he just gives me these sweet surprises. Some women want flowers and jewelry, and even though I'm not opposed to the occassional bracelet or cute ring, nothing compares to the little things he does for me. And to me they are so romantic and, sexy, if I may say so myself.
I check my phone, I get this text. It simply says: Hebrews 13:21.
With great anticipation, I search my Bible app to find these little words that melt me:
May he equip you with all you need for doing his will. May he produce in you, through the power of Jesus Christ, every good thing that is pleasing to him. All glory to him forever and ever! Amen.
And with that priceless little text, I fell in love with him just a little more.
I pray that you have someone in your life to support you, love you and encourage you to be all that God created you to be. It doesn't have to be a spouse, just someone who sees you how God sees you. If you haven't found that person yet, no worries. God has a plan for you. Just be patient, knowing God always wants the best for you.
You are loved.