The last few weeks I’ve lived in a world without trees. No matter how I’ve gazed at trees or asked God for insight, I’ve had….nothing. Even now I struggle to find the inspiration I once had regarding nature. It’s like I’m roaming in a desert.
I’ve had so many things happen in the course of the last 14 days. I’ve had a few health issues that sent me to the ER and now I will have surgery. I’ve been in and out of a dark place in my household, I’ve found myself stuck in a dark place in my relationships, I’ve been sucked into the darkness of others around me. I clearly see the attack I’m under.
I once was surrounded by oxygen, nutrients, sunlight, life, filling me up and daily revitalizing me into a new creation, only found in Jesus. But lately, it’s the desert.
A psalm of David. When he was in the Desert of Judah.
1 You, God, are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
I thirst for you,
my whole being longs for you,
in a dry and parched land
where there is no water.
Dry. Parched. That’s how my spirit has felt. Ever feel that way? Sometimes it can seem like you will be stuck there forever. You can almost not even recall what it’s like to have a drenched spirit. You wonder if things will ever change, or “return to normal”.
We can live in this tree-less world in our marriage, in our parenting, in our jobs, in our relationship with Christ. In our lack of inspiration, on the verge of hopelessness, we can forget what to do, or how to be. But David shows us how to push through these dark, desert times:
2 I have seen you in the sanctuary
and beheld your power and your glory.
3 Because your love is better than life,
my lips will glorify you.
4 I will praise you as long as I live,
and in your name I will lift up my hands.
5 I will be fully satisfied as with the richest of foods;
with singing lips my mouth will praise you.
6 On my bed I remember you;
I think of you through the watches of the night.
7 Because you are my help,
I sing in the shadow of your wings.
8 I cling to you;
your right hand upholds me.
We must remember the glory and greatness of God. Not just how he has been to or for us, but WHO He is because He is God. And in the midst of that remembrance, we praise Him and hold fast to Him. With that act of faith, He promises to hold us up, fill our spirit with HIM, never to leave us. It is only because of this, that we can find strength to endure the desert.
So if you are in that place, that tree-less land, and have no idea how to get out–stop trying. Simply raise your hands in praise, remembering WHO it is that you are praising–The God of the Universe, who created you and loves you and has a plan for your life. And if you are looking for hope, just rest in the promise that He is the one to lean on. Tree-less-ness is simply a season. A season that passes, like the winter. God always has a promise to cling to. A promise that is bigger and older than any tree in existence.
Tell me of your tree-less-ness! I want to hear your story and pray for you.