It’s been a long, long, long week. After ignoring my cough for two weeks, it turned into bronchitis. And bronchitis is some real stuff! Like for real.
I have had my share of antibiotics, Mucinex, and Poise pads. (Ladies! After three kids, my bladder just doesn’t have it. Don’t act like I’m the only one!) I’ve spent entirely too much time alone, with my thoughts, while on drugs, feeling sorry for myself- trying to solve the problems of not just the world but my life. I’ve fought with God and the devil. I told you this bronchitis is some serious -ish!
I kind myself completely aggravated with people on Twitter and Facebook…borderline judging people –ok full out judging people–for the life they choose to reflect. I really haven’t been able to put my finger on it. I haven’t been able to figure out why people just Annoyed me…
Then, in an effort to use my brain I streamed a few TED talks (if you never have you MUST). A journalist who became a hemiplegic during an accident, went on a pursuit to find the man who instantly forever changed his life. He wanted some sense of remorse, instead he found something worse. He found another man’s life that was not worth living.
As I scroll through feeds, and have discussion and sometimes even arguments I find that what irks me most –most than anything — is the person who lives an unexamined life.
I’ve been examine by a doctor to discover my bronchitis. I was weighed (don’t even ask) and prodded– the cute little Serbian nurse shoved a toilet bowl cleaner up my nose to check for flu. The doctor talked through possibilities and treatments and options. He gave me some drugs & said hey if that doesn’t work, come back so we can figure something else out.
We aren’t really willing to do that, to shove toilet bowl cleaners into our spiritual lives or emotions or past choices. We aren’t Ig to let someone else in with their perspective, in fear they may judge us… Because judging is only God’s job. We don’t really want to change. When someone comes at us with conflicting view points, or makes us feel uncomfortable with their statements or challenges what we have known to be true for 20 years we defend and yell loudly:
YOU CAN’T JUDGE ME!
YOU DON’T KNOW EVERYTHING!
THAT IS NOT POSSIBLE!
(As a counselor I hear this so often, it’s almost epidemic.)
I am learning that I want to be uncomfortable. I want people to challenge my thinking. I want to take all that is offered and seek out the Scriptures so I am always sifting my beliefs through truth.
Admittedly, I have unfollowed several people this week–not out of judgement –but because I want to be surrounded by people who are truly willing to live an examined life–even on Twitter and Facebook.
I’m not perfect, I have my blind spots and much, much, much room for change and growth and improvement… But I’m willing. Because I want life worth living. I don’t want to ignore things and they turn into Bronchitis– have I mentioned it’s some serious stuff?!
“The unexamined life is not worth living.” -Socrates